A Wish!

Do you ever wish that you were good at something? I do! I know that I have the capability to do things, but I am not great or even good at most things.

I wish I had some kind of special talent. I wish I were one of those great mommy bloggers that seem to be able to write about anything because they seem to know everything. I really wish that somehow the things that I write helped someone or made a difference in someone's life. I wish a had a 1,000 followers!

I want to write a book, but about what? I am not an expert on anything, and I think I am humorous, but most people don't laugh when I crack a joke. I am not romantic and I hate politics. I would still love to write a book! Would you buy a book about a not so spectacular life of an ordinary mom???

I would love to be a photographer. I look at great pictures and think I can do that and then wonder why I can't get a picture of my kids without a glare on the glasses or a shadow cast on them on a sunny day! I try to get close ups of the flowers on my porch and they turn out to be a blurry mess! I even bought a fancy camera and I am very excited to get 3 shots per second, but alas, I am still taking crapy pictures!

I like to sew, craft, and bake, but I am not really good at any of it. I find a recipe or an idea and go gung ho, but they never turn out the way I picture them. I have a few little things that I can pull off, but I can't tell you how many things that I have finished with a project and thrown away! Can't give that to anyone!!!!!

I just realized something! I have always heard that you dislike or criticize others for things they do when deep down it is the things you dislike in yourself. I am constantly harping on my husband for doing things half way or just enough to get by. It is really deep down something that I dislike in myself! I have no patience therefore I cut corners and do what I need to do to finish whatever I am working on! No wonder everything I set out to do doesn't turn out the way I want it too!

I burn most everything I cook or bake because I am excited about the mixing process and get bored with the completion and it burns. I have gotten better, but that is because my microwave has a timer on it! I love the sewing part of a project, but I cannot cut straight to save my life and that makes it hard to sew in a straight line! I also hate cutting out a pattern. It is boring to make sure the pattern is set set on the grain of the fabric right and it is totally tedious to cut the little triangles that help later when you are trying to line up the pattern. They are totally useful, but take so long to cut out!

So at the age of 35, I am learning that I need to have a little more patience in my life! Maybe I will never be great at everything, but just maybe I can be good at a few things if I start to take a little time and complete all the steps in the process. I need to find joy in the steps!